Heart to stone.

It is nobody’s fault except for mine. That I chose to decide on my actions, let my heart to the talking and not even thinking about the long terms consequences. I was hasty indeed. I didn’t want to stop believing that I do deserve better every failed ‘relationship’ I had.  The strongest flaw that I own is my stubbornness. It has given me this fighting spirit to be always trying for things that couldn’t possibly work.

If you asked me whether I regretted my actions for any decisions made this year, I would say a YES and a NO. But if you asked me a question like whether I could turn back time and changed some decisions, I would say NO.

Half a year has passed. It feels slow yet fast. It passes extremely fast especially when I was on a somewhat ‘wild goose chase’, chasing a ‘fugitive’ who really shot my heart with bullets of happiness and sadness at the same time.

Rationally, I already know the outcome. I went against the motions of fate and this is where I am right now, just abit loss and say broken hearted.

Then fair weathered friends keep chiding me “ It has always been the same, maybe there is something wrong about you “ I can’t help but remain silent and start to really ponder about myself.

Well, fuck you people.

This is who I am. If you can’t handle me at my worse then you won’t receive me at my best!

Till we meet again,

Farah Goh

“Right under my feet there's air made of bricks pulls me down turns me weak for you
I find myself repeating like a broken tune and I'm forever excusing your intentions.
And I give in to my pretendings which forgive you each time without me knowing
YOU melt my heart to stone.And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us,I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love
I'm the only one in love.Each and every time I turn around to leave,I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed.So desperately I try to link it with my head but instead I fall back to my knees
As you tear your way right through me,I forgive you once again
Without me knowing,you've burnt my heart to stone.

And I hear your words that I made up, You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love, I’m the only one in love.

Why do you steal my hand,whenever I'm standing my own ground
You build me up, then leave me dead”